Lifestyle, Plus Size Fashion, self love

NYFW: Dream Walk Fashion Runway Show

Oh My Loves… I don’t even know where to begin. Let’s start with a little chunky girl obsessed with fashion that she already knew she’d never fit in, she grew in to a teen who decided she’d make her own fashion and joined an ROP fashion 101 course where she won blue ribbons for her designs… Dreams of glittery runways, bright lights, beautiful fabrics draped in gorgeous designs while the hustle of the city created its own web of magic that entranced and made all dreams possible filled this fat teens head. Somewhere along the way this teen was discouraged by the lack of plus size representation and back shelved those runway dreams of attending NYFW and creating clothes that fat bodies deserved and loved. As we shift to the grown woman who I am today… it’s amazing I’m even here. From the beginning of my self love journey clothes where always a key factor; from dressing up, to wearing crop tops and showing off my belly, to showing my arms with no fear of thier girth. Clothing was a way to embrace my body and wear the clothes I had always dreamed of… We use fashion to depict our self style, make political statements, and overall give the world a glimpse of who we are in how we choose to dress ourselves.  Which is why we need more diversity being shown by these brands. We all have different body types that deserve clothing that’s fashionable and on trend.

I attended one show this year (besides the one I walked in) and was treated so absurdly that I didn’t even docuemnt the show or the clothing. I was ostricizded and treated like I didn’t belong, I even had one woman lift her lip in disgust becuase she had to brush agaisnt my side. Fat bodies deserve fashion, we deserve to sit and watch high end fashion runway shows becuase *gasp* we love fashion too. So we will keep “fatting” up those spaces, sorry not sorry. We’re not taking scraps anymore and we are demanding a seat at the table, and next year I plan on attending again and bringing my fat body to as many events as I can while pushing for more visibilty for plus bodies and plus fashion.

Now, enough about that haha below I’ve included my entire trip (minus the fat shaming runway event I attended) I hope you Loves enjoy 😉

Leaving on a jet plane… my view from the plane window when I first left Sacramento for New York…

City views apon arrival, New York has always been on my bucket list of travel destinations… The history, the architecture, this place has it’s own unique pulse that was incredible to tap into…

Dumbo Beach Brooklyn: my first location shoot of the trip with SWS Productions!

loved my make-up for this shoot! Side note: I found this bodysuit four months before this trip and had visualized the concept for months, thanks Shawn for capturig the vision in my head, fun selfie preview 😉

Second lcation shoot was in SoHo with the amazing Lydia Hudgens! this amazing soul was so fun to chat with, great to work with and I totally fan-girled her lol Lydia has been such a force in the plus photography industry. A voice for more representation, she has been a huge force in bringing more plus bodies visibilty and it was such an honor to work with her! She even shot me on traditional film!

This look:
Curvy Couture Intimates crochet bra
Torrid Mesh Top
FashionNova Curve Olive high waisted pants
Bait footwear pumps
Vintage Trench

Now let’s see some behind the scenes from the Dream Walk Fashion Show!

Make-up @Taina.alterego , hair @hairbydevinm

Custom Halter Set by http://www.bawdyloveclothing.com

Hair and makeup ready, taking a moment to soak it all in… Wearing ModCloth jumpsuit.

And She’s Dresssed…

Now for some fun behind the scenes!

Alyse Scaffidi & Lexi Scaffidi creators of the Dream Walk Fashion Show
@Bitesizedfitness & @bitesizedsis
Getting ready to film an interview for Dream Walk Fashion Show

The full recap of every beautiful soul that rocked the runway with runway shots!

The full recap of the 2019 Dream Walk Fashion Show
video credit @domcuch

After the Show 😉

Thank you Loves for joining me on this journey!

Until next time,
Kat XO

Show photographers credit:
Gabbi Townsend “Get PR”
@Manialenha
@irynashostakphotography
@emilytaylor.artist
@aasevo
@antaninaamihava
@fisher_visuals

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Plus Size Fashion, self love

Anxiety & Bondage

The most basic definition of anxiety and it’s resulting symptoms can be summarized by stating that a person can experience intense and extreme persistent worry and excessive fear about everyday situations resulting in a higher heart rate, rapid breathing, sweating, and exhaustion. Now, if you actually experience anxiety you know that the above statement is more like a sugarcoated way of briefly describing the tip of an anxiety ice burg.

Anxiety symptoms can range from a debilitating fear of leaving the home, to mumbling and social fumbling, black spots behind the eyes and fainting, cold sweats, over heated, nausea, sweaty palms, nervousness, crying, anger and agitation, and depression. These are just a few symptoms and for many people they experience these at different levels and to different degrees. There are prescriptions you can have prescribed as well as working with a therapist that can all help with anxiety and dealing with anxiety.

Now, one of the techniques/tricks/tools I’ve learned while dealing with my own anxiety is that bondage wear can help drastically cut down on any social anxiety I may be experiencing while out at events or social functions where there are large crowds. As a public speaker and someone who is use to big crowds it may sound funny to hear that I experience anxiety about these situations, but like many of you – I do.When I’m in a heavily crowded place my anxiety can start to go through the roof – I worry about taking up space, I worry about bumping in to others, I don’t want other people bumping in to me… the list goes on. And I’ve found that bondage wear helps; a collar/choker, or wearing a harness over the clothing or under drastically cuts down on the anxiety. Why? Simple: for me it feels like I’m in a constant embrace. I feel secure and safe. Which then translates to my entire being that we’re good; my posture straightens, eye contact is no issue, body bumps are no problem, my confidence feels boosted, and having that constant embrace makes me feel almost invincible. Like I could take on the world and do it confidently because I’ve got that support in place.

How many of you Loves experience anxiety attack’s? I’m right there with you. My heart beat will pick up, I’ll start getting the nervous sweats, my skin feels like it’s got creepy crawlers scurrying about, my vision tunnels and it can feel like I’m drowning – catching my breath at that point almost feels impossible. A harness actually helps me deal with this: having the constant reassuring pressure on my chest helped to anchor me and by focusing on that slight pressure I’m able to concentrate not only on the moment at hand but the situation at hand; part of my social anxiety is caused by the constant what if’s in my head (tripping, saying something stupid and embarrassing, outfit disaster). So a harness, for me, is like a reassuring hug that say’s “Hey – stop future tripping bitch you got this!”

Now Loves, I want to point out that scientifically there is also backing that engaging in BDSM activities (Yes, even just wearing the bondage wear) leaves people with lower levels of stress and an increase in cortisol levels which could be attributed to the non-judgmental environment while also experiencing physical intensity and letting go of expectations leaving the person feeling free and therefore releasing tension and anxiety. Often compared to the sensation of a “runner’s high” or mind space of a yoga practitioner.

So in summary; it’s not just about the pleasure but about the feelings the bondage wear can create in the wearer, it’s about feeling secure and safe and allowing that item to help create a sense of safety within yourself.

Huge shout out to my bestie Tami of House Of Winter for shooting this set and Bawdy Love for sponsoring this amazing harness Hecate set, this set had me feeling like a sexy goddess safe and secure in her own skin!!

Had to throw in there that this article was inspired by @iharterika and the incredible work that she does!

And last but certainly not least lol my hubby for just being him (Yes, that’s my husband in the set with me).

Until next time my Loves,

Kat XO